NURASYIQQQ. <3 (syibear) wrote,

I can't imagine being away from you, despite being so close.

[mood| lonely] 
[music| Danity Kane - Stay With Me]

I hope I cry. I need to cry.

Anorexia nervosa is a psychiatric diagnosis that describes an eating disorder characterized by low body weight and body image distortion. Individuals with anorexia often control body weight by voluntary starvation, purging, vomiting, excessive exercise, or other weight control measures, such as diet pills or diuretic drugs. It primarily affects young adolescent girls in the Western world and has one of the highest mortality rates of any psychiatric condition, with approximately 10% of people diagnosed with the condition eventually dying due to related factors


Today was my outing with bestie. Wooh. It was okay la. I mean, I didn't care about the trip, I cared about the person I spent it with. She completely made my day today. I feel good. Wheeee! She mocked this primary school kid for laughing wierdly by laughing like how he did too. Hahaha! It was so funny. You people should have been there to see how funny it was. :P

Sadly... I don't really think he's in the mood to talk to me or something.


I hope I cry soon. The pain is killing me. Day by day, idk what's going on. I try to pretend nothing's wrong. But I feel like I'm doing something wrong. I really feel like I fail as a girlfriend. I fail. I'm a letdown. Like I can never do anything right. Why am I such a screw up? And why can't he tell me that I'm not a bad girlfriend. I fail as one. I know I do. I'm not satisfactory. There's definately something wrong with me.

Ohand. Its sickening to have an obsession for models. Or how they look like. Diet and whatever crap to look like a pretty lampost. I can never look like that pretty lampost. Never. I want to loose weight. Terribly. I really wanna loose weight. Pfffft.

PS. I SAW DANIAL TODAY AT THE LIBRARY. LIKE... WTFWTFWTF?!?!?!?!. AHHHHH. HE'S SO TALL. LIKE, DAMN TALL. TALLER THAN ME! AHHH. LIKE, OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG. I wanted to see how he looked like since Teacher's Day. &now that I've seen him, I'm satisfied. :D YAY! Apeje, Dan. Disturb-disturb. BLUEK. Everybody's so much taller than I am nowadays. Grr. 

Danial, Danial, Danial! 
Anybody remembered that slightly shorter, and less abang-abang kinda Danial? Hahah. 

He's STILL thin though. :P

PPS. I WANNA GO DAN'S HOUSE! ITS SO PREEEEETY! AND BIG. HE HAS SUCH A NICE HOUSE! (i haven't been there in quite a few years.)

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